Past. Present. Future

Monday, May 29, 2006

Cantabile sunday

if talentine served as food for the heart, cantabile ’06 nourished the soul.

met the class guys earlier at 5.30, orchard mrt first. then from there decide where to go for dinner. but i arrived early, so went to borders to browse a picture book on tibet. beautiful n mystical land.... after dat found out that this qing lun also arrive early n both of us went to borders, without knowing the other was there haha....til we found out later haha

after jon arrived, me n lun went to join him lor. both of us dam shocked to find jon dressed in collar long sleeved t wif black pants. wtf?!!! this jon full of surprises. after dinner at mcdonalds taka, went to kino slack awhile where i was given n insight into the world of manga n japanese martial arts. like japan hour.

arrived at acs barker road right on time. impressive campus.... the mini concert hall provided the perfect backdrop for the pieces. now i noe y nj choir got the gold award at verona. their performance of ave verum corpus, for eg, was really impressive. i didn’t really understood the words, but it kinda reminded me of a still lake under a clear night sky.... n u can add misty mountains in the distance too if u like. i haf funny imagination i noe. but it was both poignant n bittersweet at the same time, if u noe wad i mean..

autumn leaves was also another gd song....n well sung too. to all nj choir members reading dis, thanx for all the effort in making this concert so satisfying. well done!! u pple haf alot to b proud of. oh n did i tell u all that my mother used to b in nj choir too?

felt so relaxed after dat. even night walk to newton mrt felt gd....will sum up wif a painting...

Friday, May 26, 2006

last day of the term

This term kinda ended in a bang.

during free period today went to explore the school abit. discovered the passage way to the huge balcony wif the crest facing the track. view up there was amazing.

in the long hrs waiting for art lesson, i finally decided to drag my lazy bum to take pictures of the tables n chairs for my coursework. it was really tiring n it took me hrs getting the tables n chairs to the parade square, the most suitable place to take the pics. got quite a few stares. n pushing 8 tables n 4 chairs on a trolley up the slope from the parade square to the classrooms was seriously no joke i can tell u. came back sweating n really tired. but it was an experience.

for those who haven had the privilege to see the privilege to see parade square wif a classroom twist....

lee’s short chat wif me today bugged me quite abit after dat. if he meant to make me feel bad, it certainly did. i sense that hes trying his best n i make him look bad when i don’t turn up for art lessons. usually, i tell myself that i’ll make it up by producing the work. thing is dat, i don’t produce the work. coursework progress is slow, which is worrying. n i haf secretly blamed him for not pushing me hard n doubting his abilities as a teacher.

rebelled, i had. rebelling, i am.
i never like to give my art teachers a hard time, neither haf i seen myself as a complacent art student, but it seems i haf acted the exact opposite. its like commiting murder then after that realise wif horror that u just killed someone. but given my remorse, m i ready to do mend my ways?

been a disappointment both to myself n mr lee. there was so much hope in the beginning (n i daresay there still is) when it was mr lee pushed for my appeal case to b a success. n now, do i call this gratitude?

Sunday, May 21, 2006

sat was a long but fulfilling day

aei come i tell u story.

once there was a duck... whu went into a HARDWARE shop... asking the counter... "do you hav duck food for sale?"

the counter looked at the duck
'haaaaaaarlooooooow... tis is a HARDWARE shop... how can there be DUCK FOOD in a HARDWARE shop?'

so the duck left...

the second day... the duck went back... did the same thing... asked the counter... "do you hav duck food for sale?"...the counter was beginning to be annoyed...

'this is the 2nd time i m telling you... tis is a hardware shop... we dun sell DUCK FOOD... so shoooooo!' n so the duck left again... disapppointed...

the third day... the duck went back AGAIN... did the same thing AGAIN... asking the counter... "do you hav duck food for sale?"... tis time ard... the counter lady was soooo friggin pissed... told the duck...

'eh mann... if u come back one more time asking for DUCK FOOD... IN A HARDWARE SHOP... i will NAIL you to the ground...' the duck left...

the forth day... the duck ONCE AGAIN went back to the hardware shop... but tis time ard... he asked the counter... "do you hav NAILS for sale?"... the counter replied... 'oh its sold out... come back again another day... i m sorry...' than the duck IMMEDIATELY asked... "IS there duck food for sale?"... n the counter cannot nail the duck to the ground cos no more nails in the shop... hahahahas.

freaking farny right?!!

ok well yesterday was kinda busy day. njc celebrated her 37th college day. our class was supposed to b crowd control. its quite fun n cool actually. coz there wasn't even a crowd. we were told to stand at strategic spots n make sure pple r kept away from the guest of honour, mr hawazi daipi. if u say huh who is he forget it. this is the 243590875092874 time somebody asked me that. but this minister really is obscure. when i first heard his name i also went wad the toot.

n why do pple must keep away from the minister? he very anti-social isit? he got aids ar?

anyway, crowd control quite fun. after the minister left concert spending so much time in the sanctuary air con room eating like a pig w/o even touring the funfair at all (see? he very anti-social right?) then onli the guys were relieved of our duty. after which, jon n me went crazy trying to buy food to clear all our ticks. qing lun is the cleverest. never sell any, so after vip go already n quickly zao to play pool. pple like me shd learn from him.

nj funfair is called by this gay dumbdumb name funtasia. n it wasn’t fun at all. seriously regretted selling all my ticks to gil lee. cheat money one. as much as i try to like this dumb rice sack, it just makes itself all the more unlikable. (so now not onli guest of honour anti-social. this rice sack also another one)

after that went to watch da vinci code. wif me n sean smuggling all the food from nj funtasia in. ate it during the movie. was our lunch. this langdon was uber show-off. want to woo beutiful chiobu sidekick then will make random comments abt the history of this n dat place to show-off his zainess. the acting was quite flat but the soundtrack was realli apt. generally, i wd say that it was a good try.

evening went for chinese mass wif godparents so today no need to go church n can wake up late. which is y i’m here blogging....going for chinese mass gives me a feelin of how it our great great grandparents felt like to go for latin mass. mths of not speaking, reading, seeing chinese had made it seem like a foreign lang. relatives of my godparents came n sat wif us. they brought a whole bunch of boys no more than 6 yrs old. n boys cannot sit still in church. there was even a point when one of them in front stood on the pew n started jumping up n down. n beside me my godpa was making farny faces n doing baby talk wif his 2 yr old seraphin to keep her entertained so she won’t cry. n behind the boys everytime make farny sound. n got once or twice they imitate priest.

cdn’t help laughing haha. mass need to haf this kind of pple around or else i’ll fall asleep.

this wee shian sae got alot of my entries talk abt church. sae i very religious.
i take dat as a complement.

but wad kind of wipe ass conclusion is dat? doesn’t mean dat i blog abt church often means i very devout. if ur logic is true, it follows dat pple who always blog abt sch just luv going sch. n anyway sch these daes haf been so dull that the onli interesting non-routine stuff i cd actually blog abt w/o falling asleep is church.

Friday, May 19, 2006

short day. short week. short post

sch ended today at 1245. so 1245 go home lor. one of the earliest days so far. today’s like primary sch timetable! early days. for me catch up on wad i miss out on when i stay back late. so i decided. go home die die must eat lunch. so deprived right? eating lunch at home issomething relegated to the discrete past.

then after that, eat full full already, bath, i decided. i will have afternoon nap! naps r good stuff. n they come few n far in between these days. only thing was that i woke up a solid 3 hrs later feelin slightly disoriented. especially when coming to gripes wif the fact that today was the end of the week already. how time flies indeed.

which left me feeling quite queer.

Monday, May 15, 2006

cheecheechorchor

Sch todae was almost like a non-event. pon gp, also ask art class to go n die. so basically came to sch for civics, hist n econs. smart.

n u noe r actually i early early planned to pon next monday. give myself another long weekend. n monday coz its a waste of time day....n monday GOT ART. last sat tell father mother already, oh monday got college day sch holiday so no need go sch. haha virgin reads my thots. today that gil lee come in n say the sch really declare off for that day n for the same reasons too. oh well. the may mth is great for holidays. maybe if i haf daughter next time i call her may.

yesterday went to varnish my o lvl painting. mother complain its dam stink. worse than her nail polish n my maid’s fresh aloe vera pulp that she puts in her hair. but not as smelly as my pang sai haha. but no choice la. its really cool to give the painting that shiny surface thats so characteristic of the paintings of the masters wks...those that they put the gold frame n hang in big big art museum.... moreover, sji art teacher mrs tan say she want to enter my wk for syf this yr. so enter in competition must stylo abit ma.

n since the syf art exhibition’s only held once every 2 yrs, any wk produced during that period can b submitted. n u r allowed to enter that art piece under the institution that u studied under when u made that work. so i’ll b entering my o lvl piece under sji. hopefully, it will win something for my alma mater. a gold perhaps haha. jkjk.

maths lect test tomorrow. well lets just say the weekend was just totally switched off from anything sch related, n so far, i’ve just skimmed thru complex nos for my revision. no mood to do the rest. come to think of it, i actually don’t mind failing this time round. NOT looking forward to tomorrow.

but at least tomorrow got NO ART.

Friday, May 12, 2006

n organist's life

long awaited holiday again. i never tire of long holidays. just bring them on n make sure they keep coming.

today played for 800pm family mass. it has kinda been quite some time since i last played in church, n its a first playing in sfa. previously, i just accompanied sean’s aunty in holy fam, but now, on the organ, i’ve been given a more major role. but thankfully i do not suffer alone. i haf joe to accompany me on his guitar. he’ll do all the singing, and he being the more seasoned one, he’ll cue me on my playing.

as a member of the congregation, u just tag along wif wads going on, but its a whole different world out there as someone on the other side supplying the music. co-ordination is the key. its only after u’ve got the co-ordination right then u can add in abit of showmanship. but not too much. one has to bear in mind that its still a ceremony of prayer, not some rock concert.

so i guess i need some time to adjust. as organist, u haf ctrl over wad u play but i guess u’ll never noe whether the guy sitting at the back can actually hear u. pple r mostly not very honest wif their comments. bearing in mind that ur newbish they will always say u played well. but they’ll stop short of pointing out parts u screwed up. so did i really play that well or did i not? i’ll never noe.

wad the heck, i’ve to learn not to be so critical of myself. its bad for my ego. in any case, if we made any mistakes, we always learn not to make them the next time.

i believe that music has the power to move n inspire. n if an organist is able to make just one member of the congregation experience, albeit for a moment, the goosebumps that come wif good uplifting religious music, he has succeeded in his task.

i’ll strive for that goal when i play again, next month.

night everyone.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

things change.

The weekends r just too short. just nice enuff to rest n relax but definitely not enuff to catch up on a week’s load of accumulated workload. i’ll haf to clear them this week someday, somehow.

today’s mass that marked vocation sunday really got me thinking about wad i’m to do wif my life. am i really called to b an architect... or is this a choice i impose upon myself? something not in line wif some divine plan.... wad resurfaced where some jobs i had thought of...teaching, n for one moment, the priesthood. ya believe it or not. they highlighted today the alarming rate in which the no. of ordinations have dropped... at this rate, in 5 yrs time the diocese won’t see anymore ordinations or “new blood” in the priesthood. i’m not implying that i want to b a priest but i also cannot say i will or won’t b one for certain. but i am guilty of taking the priests i see in church for granted, thinking that they’ll always b there. its a scary thought. without priests there will b no eucharist, when there’s no mass, there’ll b no parish, there’ll b no church, n when theres no church, who noes wads to become of it? n more importantly, wad happens to my -no-, our faith?

wadever the future lies in store for me, i pray for the courage to face it.

sat was the usual outing wif sean, wif novena as the arbitrary constant. but bicycles at his house not available, so it was one of the rare occasions we decided to walk to east coast. sat at one of the breakwater points overlooking the sea to chat n chill out. n i can tell u, i sure was very relaxing. therapeutic. n best of all, it happened to b a windy day that day, so very shiok shiok. jc life sux big time, but its things like these that keep up going.

this kinda brings back memories of spain. one evening in this city called Granada i took the opp to take a short stroll around the area around the hotel when i chanced upon this path leading to an olive grove. walking into the olive grove i realized that a path led up to a cliff overlooking the city. there was no one around that area coz it was quite quiet. so i sat down at the edge of the slope n wished that the moment wd last forever. the cool breeze blowing in ur face, the olive trees rustling in the wind. above u the stardust trampled night sky, n at ur feet, the city lit by dozens of lights.

beautiful i’d sae.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Escape!!!!

here i am, back at it again, refreshed after a very rejuvenating mayday holiday break. today was actually not too bad. no art. free periods spent crapping away. quite a good day actually. well spent. in a non academic sense.

haha today the gp ar, this florence yap characher knnbcbb come in to class uber late, wif her act cute face (as if her face very cute lidat.), chinaman pajamas(lucky she wear pajamas actually. if she wear bikini i tor), saying in her quiet n demure voice, “err class today i was busy writing the principal’s address so i only realized i got lessons wif ur after the bell rang. i didn’t plan for this lesson actually.”

wha lau, i pui chao nua! i tell u even if the worker party ah neh James Goners is my gp teacher he also can come up wif better reason than that. gp class is the only lesson in the whole wide wide world that don’t need to plan anything one. if u plan for lesson WELL, gd for u. ur student sure like u. if u don’t plan, u lan jiao come in to class wif nothing but ur balls, u also can scrap through. just go into class, n think of some topic to shoot ur students wif, n u can just sit back n carry out a discussion until bell ring.

women without tips r pointless. i tell u this useless yap character is one of them. come in already then she ask the class, “err so wad shall we do today?”, is it teacher job or student job to plan lesson one ar? if student plan lesson, then no need to haf teacher liaoz.

so anyway, some pple repond say she shd let us do our work, let us off early, or we help her wif her “principal message”. some ask her, “so do we haf to stay in classroom.” she say it would b nice of us to stay. so ok lor. i’ve decided enuff is enuff.

MM big lee say first world country must have first world govt n opposition. I say first world student must have first world lessons! florence yap, if u try n play “third world politics” wif me, sorry better to prepare to kena from the great alvin.

so r, when she not seeing that time I adskjfhagsdfjahshoot take my bag n get out class. she didn’t realize this immediately, i guess, coz according to Gloria she after a while appear to kena stunned, refusing to believe, n after that trying to convince herself that this boy outside the classroom, wif his back facing u carrying his bag n running away is actually, ahem the Great Uncle Alvin.

so zao then zao lor. but i must say r, that the experience dam shiok. tock gong. long time never experienced such fleeting moments of fun...until today haha.

the adreline rush.

the heart pumping.

ur pulse quickens.

n when the moment is right.

heaven. Escape!!!!