its been a very very long while since i blogged. n dis blog is almost dead. much has happened in one month. i’ve felt dat i’ve finally grown into my vocation, n into my job.
i guess its all a result of some soul searching n reflection. its changed my attitude toward my vocation. previously, i’ve always been very reluctant to perform my duties as a recce scout. i’ve always seen it as a job assigned to me against my will. “so why should i comply?” i kept telling myself. it tellingly reflected in my work. anyone with any bit of pride would be ashamed, knowing dat things could have been better, but u didn’t make any effort to contribute to the team.
i guess it’s all a matter of attitude. during the last two outfield exercises, i surprised myself by my ‘on the ball’ness. even my bunkmates were surprised, n they asked me wad happened to me. hahas i told them i liked my job n wanted it to stay dat way. outfield became very satisfying for once. it was a personal achievement for me, n it reflected my growth as a person.
right now, its still realli hard to find the time n inspiration to do any significant art project. most of wad i do r still sketches here n there. nothing big, noteworthy. but i’ve some plans to to a painting, or series about my ns experience closer to my ord. when i get more free time n everybody’s on civilian mode. esp in the last month when all my bunkmates have ord-ed n i’m one of the few stuck in the coy line. i have dis crazy idea to bring all my paints, brushes n painting stuff to my bunk n paint the whole day. stopping for FREE breakfast lunch n dinner at the cookhouse.
alvin ong dozed and watched the sawdust trampled night @ 8:46 AM
