To trust in one another right from the start....
It's a hard life
To be true lovers together
To be true lovers together
To love and live forever in each others hearts
--It's a long hard fight
--It's a long hard fight
To learn to care for each other
To trust in one another right from the start....
To trust in one another right from the start....
Freddie Mercury/Queen (It's a Hard Life)
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my blog entries r turning into monthly posts. mainly cos there’s nothing to blog, or there’s nothing i can blog. or weekends r so packed i don’t find the time, effort n energy to blog.
i’ve come to appreciate, n realize, being on the ball at right times like these actually pays off. the sense of achievement n satisfaction of having done a job well is indescribable. seeing thru something from start to end with ur fellow scouts forges a kind of bond between u and them when u all work together, all giving our best for a common goal. u get accustomed to every individual’s working styles, their strengths n weaknesses. n its during stuff like these when we train together n suffer together dat we become very close. looking back on the week, all the training suddenly becomes very meaningful. its not the technical knowledge dat i take home from training. its more of the camaraderie, n the experience of organizing and directing dat’s totally priceless. i doubt i’ll ever have the privilege of being able to work wif guys whom i noe inside out ever again, after i ord. these r the same guys u wake up, sleep n bathe with, the same guys u train n suffer with, n also the same ones whom u share the more lighthearted moments of ur life.
our platoon is like a family. something i’m hugely thankful to be blessed with, having seen platoons who can’t work together cos of differences, n platoons whose men r so blur n selfish they can’t even get simple things done. having said all these, i feel truly blessed n proud to be a recce scout.
my friend told me yesterday i was a very lucky boy. to have a fixed goal in the civilian world after we all ord. many of them r still unsure wad to do with their lives. unsure of how to maximize their talents. n unsure if their skills n interests would bring in the bacon. which made me wonder whether i will achieve success in my own life. in the army, i’ve realized i learn stuff quite quickly, but i take quite awhile to grasp the skills to excel in something new. but i know dat once i hit such a level, i get realli realli good at it. n architect is something like a scout, u have to have alot of knowledge n experience. n u need to be a jack of all trades. n i discovered i didn’t have dat last criteria. which made me alittle daunted. i’m lucky, but maybe not so lucky after all.
dis weekend i’ll recuperate from the exhausting week be recuperating at home. i’ll aim or a breakthrough in my painting technique. loosen the style. give myself new direction n my painting style. i want my army paintings to be refreshingly new, totally different from the sji-surreal paintings i’ve produced.
til next time, ciao.
alvin ong dozed and watched the sawdust trampled night @ 7:54 AM
