oh hello
i'm not ready for the As. but think again, i will never ever b ready for any exam. was hoping to accomplish much more but i guess i started too late. think again, its never too late. but trying to tackle microecons from scratch a 2 wks b4 the As? its madness. everytime i flip thru my file n i see those skimpy essay outlines, swiggly handwriting on my dd n ss essay, that convulsive image of sublime beauty n distorted elegance of a teacher comes to mind. n dats enuff to turn u off from mugging anymore, wad not wif all the other distractions around my house. n the biggest distraction of all, my mind dat has a natural propensity to daydream when u most need it to work.
go blog surfing n u find that all ur friends r probably mugging harder than u. but think again, they probably thinking dat ur probably mugging harder than them. so yar its spirals both to an upward surge in an academic pursuit of competition for hegemony, rivalry n progandistic self interest. so who's playing mind games wif whom. i guess we're all playing mind games wif ourselves huh. -says in a morosely jonathan fashion- "its all in the mind. The mind....." wif the As, its no longer an issue of MAD deterrence theories but more of SAD. self-assured destruction. an all-or-nothing strategy in which the adversary that strikes first, dies first.
it all begins next week. gp, my greatest nightmare. yesterday walking around in town, saw the christmas decorations going up. tis abit early isn't it. when christmas comes, it will all b said n done. jc life over. the As over. n the army beckons n we'll all b leading very diff lives there-or so i think. but then again, if i happen to screw my As, there'll b no christmas for me.
until then -
alvin ong dozed and watched the sawdust trampled night @ 2:26 PM
<< Home