today was econs paper
i think u might haf expected me to say more abt the solo exhibition opening. well heres my take. it was very crowded. very very crowded. i’m not the attention seeking type. didn’t realli warm up to the atmosphere at jendala. better to go on a normal day. it was inopportunely timed to coincide wif the prelims, unfortunately. n mrs tan asked me yesterday if anybody commented on the stylistic differences bet my o lvl work n the other paintings. well nobody mentioned it, but my uncle did mention that he cd tell that the other paintings were done in great haste. technically, very meticulous, but somehow the ‘feeling’ was not there. but the window was a clear favourite. so well, moving on...
what i take home from this experience is the process that has given me the confidence to paint. n to paint well at that, in mr chia’s words, “not to let go.” my painting technique n philosophy has certainly evolved. stylistically speaking, my current style is more mature, more developed. n i have pulled all that i haf learnt, summoned my final strength n invested them in my a lvl work. there u haf it. wif “time present, time past.”, i’ve more or less marked a form of closure to what i call the “sji-surrealist period”. to yearn for, to search, to grapple with, n finally to accept.
in my recent works there r signs – n other people haf also pointed this out – that my works r becoming detached n cold. which r signs that i haf to move on in art. where i will go after this i haf no idea. but all i noe is that to me, life in my art is always surreal, n in a sense, timeless. but i can b sure that i will continue depicting my dreams n aspirations in paint.
prelims haf just made life greyer. but i take comfort that at least i’m not the only one sitting for the exams. i have no high hopes this time. wad can u expect me to complete in 1 week u tell me? but i hope i am ready when the As come round.
alvin ong dozed and watched the sawdust trampled night @ 8:19 PM
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