grey dae. lifes just...not wad it used to b
todae road run was a run wif a difference. class guys ran together thruout, wif kelvin. was fun.
then after that. class outing at cineleisure. had lunch there, played xbox. they had this fighting game n car racing. not too bad. but was still feeling dam tired from yesterdae... n no more movies for me. for past 2 weeks haf been going to the movies every week. cannot go on wasting money like that. so todae didn’t join the class pple for movie. actually quite sad, only abt 8 pple went for the outing. guys only got qing lun, wang zi n me. now i feel very guilty abandoning qing lun after lunch... n esp wang zi decided to follow me n go home, leaving qing lun alone wif the girls. feel very very guilty. wasn’t a very pleasant feeling, especially when all the way from cineleisure to somerset mrt wang zi was complaining n grumbling away. he was dam sore abt lots of things. grumbling abt how other classes go out wif their junior class to do fun things n our class doesn’t n how he doesn’t understand y our class pple don’t like kbox.
he was especially sore abt the kbox part, n sae he will never ever go for any of our class outings again coz they so sian. for the first time i felt like asking him to fuck off n shut up. but ctrl. i decided that not gd to sour relations wif him since we’re classmates. n i noe that sometimes i also complain abt alot of things so i’m not exactly any better than him. so better to control myself.
go home felt moody all afternoon. until cdn’t sleep. too many things on my mind. now also.sometimes i think this feeling is more than sianness, theres something more to it when i think abt sch. n i don’t noe how to change things for the better.
tmw going novena, n then acjc’s funfair for lunch. promised sean that i wd go so ya. n i have tons of revision to do.
life’s just getting tough.
messy.
sometimes i just don’t noe what’s going on or who i am or what u’m doing n where i’m heading.
sometimes i think i’m concerned too much abt what others think n sae of me.
alvin ong dozed and watched the sawdust trampled night @ 7:46 PM
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